Walking.

This past week was super busy. There was limited time for exercise, so I did what I could and was happy with it. I mainly focused on hitting 10,000 steps every day. I got a Fitbit in February, and it has made a huge difference. I'm much more aware of how long I have been sitting, and I have been using it to make sure I get up every hour and move. I feel so much better.

I got in a few strength sessions during the week, too. Lifting is always my favorite. I love how I feel after a good workout. I haven't gotten to run very much, but I'm planning to run tomorrow. Today is TKD day, so my morning workout is usually practicing my pattern and stretching. Last week's class was tough, especially because I did a lot of exercise on Sunday. Yesterday, I did a lot of walking, but nothing too extreme. Hoping class goes better tonight.

This weekend was pretty great. I was a little bummed to miss the last TKD tournament of the season. With everything that has happened in the last few months, I was not able to compete at all this year, and I missed it. I mostly missed the people. Still, I had a great weekend. Celebrated my baby turning 10, which doesn't really seem possible. Then I had an awesome Mother's Day with my whole family. We did a lot of walking. I wanted to check out a place called Red Rocks in Burlington, and my mom, sister, and brother-in-law joined us. It was a beautiful walk and a gorgeous day.

Walking and Accepting

Lots of walking this weekend. Yesterday, I felt pretty bad, but I had made a promise to the Artist that I would run with him. I want to keep supporting his new love of running, so I sucked it up and went. We walked a little. We did some longer sections of slower running as well as some shorter sprints. I felt awful after each one, but I didn't let on. He was thrilled and had so much fun. I love running with him.

Today, I went for a long walk with my awesome friend, Michelle. It was nice to have someone to talk to about what I mess I have been lately and laugh. We always have so much fun on our walks. Certain people make me happier just being around them, and she is definitely one of them.

We did about 5.5 miles. I was achy when I was done, but I still managed to do another mile with the Moon Dog when I got home. It may not feel great to exercise right now, but emotionally it is necessary. I can't stand not being active.

I'm really trying to slow down and accept that this is what I can do right now. It's frustrating, but I know it's necessary. I've been doing too much for too long. My body's finally making me slow down. I need to listen.

A Better Day

This week has been rough. I haven't been posting because I try to keep my blog positive, and lately I've felt like I've been taken over by an exhausted, angry stranger. Physically, I have not been feel good. If I'm being honest, I haven't felt this bad since I was at my heaviest and smoking, and even then I could do more than I can lately. I feel like crap. Which means I haven't been exercising. Which means I'm not feeling good emotionally either.

My appointment with the endocrinologist is next week, and I am hoping for answers and less of a wait before the next step. I want this fixed as soon as possible. I hate feeling like this, but I'm trying to stay positive. As I've been reminded by several well-meaning people, I am lucky that it's fixable. I know I'm lucky. I know it could be much worse. Knowing that doesn't make it easier when I feel terrible and am too exhausted to do simple, everyday tasks. It doesn't keep me from feeling incredibly frustrated and embarrassed. I miss feeling energetic.

I'm nervous about my appointment and have been unsuccessfully trying to not focus on it. I've been struggling to relax. I store my stress in my shoulders and had a tension headache that lasted 6 days. Wednesday helped a lot. Andy got us tickets to see Rent, and we had a great night out. The show was amazing, and it was exactly what I needed. I also got to spend time with my mom who came up to watch the kids. It was nice to be able to talk about everything with her.

I'm feeling slightly better today and more positive. Whenever I feel a little better, I make sure to get in a workout because some days I feel too exhausted to move. I'm grateful for the Moon Dog because he makes sure I get out and at least walk every day. I can't let down my pooch.

Today's workout was pretty good (for where I'm at now). I didn't do as much as I used to be able to, and I moved slow. Still, something is better than nothing.

Friday's workout:

Won Hyo x6
incline push-ups 25 reps x2
chamber holds 30 sec./side x2

Chun Gi/ Dan Gun x2
1 arm incline push-ups 10 reps/side x2
side kicks 10 reps/side w/brief hold while extended x2

Do San/Won Hyo x2
incline push-ups 25 reps x2
hook kicks (with dropping knee) 10 reps/side x2

Won Hyo x6
modified 1 arm push-ups (flat) 10 reps/side x2
side kick/hook kick (without dropping) 10 reps/side x2


It was a good workout. Tougher than it should have been, but it was good. I sweated and felt better after I was done. Moon Dog and I also went for a longer walk than usual this morning, so I've got some endorphins going today.

It's a good day.